Sometimes theres just those days where everything is on your mind at once. thats me today.
Now normally I just go outside and sit in/ jump out of on a swing of my farvorite tree listening to music praying ect. I can call my friends if really need it but mostly i like to try to keep my own problems, my own.
That is why only one other person knows about this blog at the moment (HI MOLLY)
But since it is obviously way way way to cold to sit in any tree outside i feel like i need to vent this in writing
please bear with me as you will realize that i am not a very good writer.
I'm worried that
a. i annoy people on a regular basis and nobody is nice enough to clue me in
b. My 2 frends who didnt get a part in the play are mad at me cause i got one of the biggerish roles
c. that i will totally SUCK in the play and let everyone down, (Because quote "I cant play a mean person" end quote)
d. my great-grandma is not going to be around much longer, as she is in hospice and not responsive
e. i think my academics are going to go down since i have no desire to work anymore.
f. My senior buddies who i look up to greatly think i'm a nusaince and a pest and wish i would switch schools
g. that this cold i have is permantant and my voice will forever be this deep
h. that im over reacting and that everything above will turn out to be ok in the end (pray to the good lord)
oyee i can't wait till thursday.
Love to all ( or the one)
Colleen
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I'm worried that
ReplyDeletea. i annoy people on a regular basis and nobody is nice enough to clue me in( you never annoy me, you make me happy and always make my shitty days a whole lot better
b. My 2 frends who didnt get a part in the play are mad at me cause i got one of the biggerish roles(they are probably just jealous and they need to accept the fact that they were not chosen)
c. that i will totally SUCK in the play and let everyone down, (Because quote "I cant play a mean person" end quote) (dont let anyone make you think you cant play that role cause i know you can. you are a great actress and they will see that?
d. my great-grandma is not going to be around much longer, as she is in hospice and not responsive ( i am so sorry about that :( )
e. i think my academics are going to go down since i have no desire to work anymore.( we fall down but we get up, its ok, i never do work and end up getting a's and b's)
f. My senior buddies who i look up to greatly think i'm a nusaince and a pest and wish i would switch schools ( they dont think that. amanda and michelle said that you are their favorite sophmore. i bet they look up to you sometimes.)
g. that this cold i have is permantant and my voice will forever be this deep ( it wont, i have had the same cold for over three weeks and it always comes back, try drinking hot tea...it helps)
h. that im over reacting and that everything above will turn out to be ok in the end (pray to the good lord) ( you are not over reacting at all but you have nothing to be worried about)
hey babe!!! i have to say this one and only thing, and u might hate me 4 it, but u sound like carissa!!! i quote " that my older friends hate me" carissa always says " the nuns at cj hate me!! like so much!!" i hate to say that given who carissa is and all, but i feel i should because, (srry to kiss, but..) well, that would be bad!! very!!! i mean, i can handle one, but idt i can handle 2!!!! lul
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