soo if you have read my last post then you may know that i am giving up all internet for lent
and seeing as lent begins on wednesday i figured i should post something before i go sooo here is a funn story i wish to share

today at play practice well first of all the "you-know what i mean" count is up to 294
almnost hit 300 today

and then i was getting really into my character and in the past the director has told me to be meaner but stoday she told me that i was really
"getting BI-OTCHY" and that she wanted to slap me

and then i was soo happy that i smiled and said in my "mousey voice" thank you
and she yelled at me for breaking character.

hey its a step up
hopefully by the end of this everyone will want to slap me!

Lenten Project

OK soo I've been thinking a lot about what I can do for Lent and i really dont want just give up something i like and be done. I want to make a difference and do something big.So after much thought i have come to the conclusion that I spend way too much time on the internet and facebook. Time that should be spend fullfilling responsibillities. and i noticed that one responsibillity that always seems to be last on my priority list is a clean room. ( if you have seen it you knhow wwhat i'm talking about, and if you havent you dont want to) It is a mess, and completely filled with things that i dont need, dont want, and things i havent had time to get rid of.Maybe you see where im going with this. For lent i'm giving up all internet (except for school, and a hour on sundays so i dont have 50 bajillion e-mails after lent) And the time that i would have spent on the internet i will now use to do an archeological dig of my bedroom, and maybe more rooms of my house. After easter I will organize a garage sale to sell all of my unwanted junk . ANy leftovers will go to goodwill, and the money from the sale will be given to a charity.I wasnt sure which charity for awhile, but one night I was on the phone with molly and she was telling me about the Autism Walk, and her team and how she can never seem to raise enough money for it. soo i decided to help her out.I am writing this because i want your help. I want lots and lots of people to Participate. If your not soo sure about the whole giving up the internet thing, you could just limit your computer time, or give up something else, or you could just skip the giving something up and donate to the garage sale, or straight to Molly's Autism Team (O is for Olivia, H is for Hope) Also The autism walk isnt until October, but if you want to walk on her team you can let her or me know up until like august or something.All help will be appreaciated greatly. And If you do want to help just let me know.you can contact me on facebook on SUndays only, or by cell phone, let me know if you want my numberThanks for reading! and i hope we can get some help

ok hi
soo i havnt written in a while
in the past week my great-grandma past away
and i just didnt feel like writing really

but now i will write something else

my mom's family is the Typical Italian clann

my Grandparents are very close to all of their kids and they have 4
Uncle Carl- he's a Jesuit preist and has finally moved back to St. Louis
Uncle Gerry- Recently divorcee has two adorable kids Alyssa and Christian 3rd grade and 1 grade . His neew girlfriend Lynn is very sweet and super skinny, i just dont really like the whople idea of him dating in general. nothing against her. He used to be in a band that played at little night clubs ect. One more thing he is very impatient Especially with Driving. Ever heard of those comercials for those radar things on the front of your car that tells you if the poilice is approaching? hes got one.
My Mom -Helen- The only girl.
Uncle Kurt- uncle Kurt is the baby. Hes a insurance agent, verry successful. MY Anut Tiffany wastes no time using any extra cash they get however. SHe fixes up their house, and takes care of their two kids Fara and ANthony, Junior and 8th grader. Fara is one of my bestest friends in the world. we like to say thatwe'll always be friends because technically... were stuck together.

also at family functions is my Uncle John
He''s my great uncle but we leave out the great because really hes not so great (kidding)
He's a Collage professor, never married, and used to spend his time taking care of his mom, My great Grandmother. Now i guess he cant do that anymore...

My Great Grandmother was a typical italian woman
she cooked cleaned and lived alone after her husband died when i was like 3 or soo
SHe made the best meatballs. and when ever we went over there you can bet we had a meal of KFC chicken the most buttery buttered noddles in the world and left with a dollar in our pockets.
SHe we always an inspiration cause she never got her licence, never lived in a nursing home, never walked with a cane. the only thing was she had to use a hearing aid. Then the Melanomia struck
thats skin cancer
She had radiation and chemo that made her thin hair disappear completely
but after a year or so she didnt want to live with it anymore... so we put her in hospice carea and she died there about a week later.
she was 94?
the best time i remeber with her is dancing and singing with the waiters at her ninetieth birthday party.
SHe was the one singing and dancing and it was soo much fun.
i could have sworn she'd make it to 100...


it didnt help my mood the day she died that in biology someone finally explained what Hospice was.. Mrs. Bean. gee that made me feel greatttt....


Okee im done with the pitty party now
you get it

thanks for reading

Colleen

PS My Director for my play say "you know what i mean" a lot
as of 3 two hour practices of me counting each time she said it
there were 88 tallies in my script
i will keep you posed ou this

My Family (or one of them)

Broadcast is one of my families
i have many but this morning i was bored in study soo i wrote a little on it
soo here it is:

I Absolutly looooooovee broadcast. So very much.This morning we had it and I got to be on equipment and even though itseems like sooo much stress pre-recording ect. With little of no notice, Idon’t mind. I love it. I love the people, I love the atmosphere, justeverything about that room screams YES THIS IS WHERE YOUR SUPPOSED TOBE!!!

That’s why im not looking foreward to next year. As my friend moomy puttit things, 1,2, and 3 want to join and that’s not cool. It supposed to beour little class not anyone elses. Not only that but the leaders of thisyear are alllll leaving. The seniors lead it all, they all know exactlyhow to do the equipment and everything and they aren’t gunna be there.

Im still gunna be on the team but its defiantly not going to be as greatas this year, course, it would have been hard to beat anyway.

Thanks for reading yall.

Colleen

todayy i just gotta relaxxx

So today was another day that i wish it was warm enough to tree jump however i think that i just need to pray and ill bee ok soo here are the lrics to the song describing my life as of noww

Your Gaurdian Angel
By the Red Jupsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile, Tears roll down my face I can't replace.And now that I'm strong, I have figured out, How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)I'll stand up with you forever.I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)Even if saving you sends me to heaven.It's okay, It's okay, It's okay-ay-ay-ay-ay.Seasons are changing, And waves are crashing, And stars are falling all for us.Days grow longer and nights grow shorter, I can show you I'll be the one. I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)I'll stand up with you forever.I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)Even if saving you sends me to heaven.'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y, My true love, my whole heart.Please don't throw that away.'Cause I'm here... for you! Please don't walk away and, Please tell me you'll stay! Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh! Stay! Whoa-oh! Use me as you will! Pull my strings just for a thrill! And I know I'll be okay, Though my skies are turning grey! (grey! grey! ) I will never let you fall! I'll stand up with you forever! I'll be there for you through it all, Even if saving you sends me to heaven! I will never let you fall! I'll stand up with you forever! I'll be there for you through it all, Even if saving you sends me to heaven!

Whats on your mind?

Sometimes theres just those days where everything is on your mind at once. thats me today.
Now normally I just go outside and sit in/ jump out of on a swing of my farvorite tree listening to music praying ect. I can call my friends if really need it but mostly i like to try to keep my own problems, my own.
That is why only one other person knows about this blog at the moment (HI MOLLY)
But since it is obviously way way way to cold to sit in any tree outside i feel like i need to vent this in writing
please bear with me as you will realize that i am not a very good writer.

I'm worried that
a. i annoy people on a regular basis and nobody is nice enough to clue me in
b. My 2 frends who didnt get a part in the play are mad at me cause i got one of the biggerish roles
c. that i will totally SUCK in the play and let everyone down, (Because quote "I cant play a mean person" end quote)
d. my great-grandma is not going to be around much longer, as she is in hospice and not responsive
e. i think my academics are going to go down since i have no desire to work anymore.
f. My senior buddies who i look up to greatly think i'm a nusaince and a pest and wish i would switch schools
g. that this cold i have is permantant and my voice will forever be this deep
h. that im over reacting and that everything above will turn out to be ok in the end (pray to the good lord)

oyee i can't wait till thursday.

Love to all ( or the one)

Colleen